I was twelve when my mother turned forty and started to disappoint me. There is nothing more painful in this life than disillusionment, but it happens to everyone and usually starts with parents. Up until I was twelve, though, my mother was everything. I can still feel her tender kisses on my cheeks, the press of her hand as she led me through traffic, the feel of her fingers drop curling my hair with a fine tooth comb and a bowl of ice water. She was strength and softness, tempered by intelligence and independence.
In my pre-twelve little girl eyes, my mother was everything I wanted to be. My memory paints pictures of my mother in swimming watercolor, like the paintings she’d made when she was a girl. Paintings that had been hung in Jamaica’s Devon House, a prominent government building where she had worked in the gift shop long before I entered her imagination. When I picture her in the early days of my childhood, I see a hard-working, determined student and superb mathematician studying by the singular circle of light thrown on the dining table from the lamp above. (Photo: my mother the Jamaican Beauty)
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Editor’s Note: Last week I shared 40 Things I’m thankful for at 40 and I encouraged other women to do the same. The exercise was a great one, reminding me just how blessed my first 40 years on earth have been. Today I’m sharing Anjie’s 40 at 40 list. Anjanette’s a Graphic Designer, owner of her own company Idzin, and a grateful woman at 40…
40 Things I’m Grateful For by Anjanette
- my mother, my sister for being my 2nd mother and her children for loving their aunt anjie
- my mother’s genes, talents, strength and her unwavering faith in me
- my family
- my granny-her soft hands, kindness, patience and her complete love for my sister and I
- my sister’s guidance and endless support
- my brother-in-law for his kindness and sense of humor
- the love of a child
- the trust of a teenager
- james’ humor
- my creativity Continue reading Anjanette On: 40 things she’s grateful for
Yesterday I shared the first half of my 40 things I’m thankful for list – Here’s part 2…
21. The book “Streams in the Desert” by L.B. Cowman, for greeting me each morning with words to live by.
22. My $300 Laptop that, despite receiving frequent physical and verbal abuse from me, has gotten me through almost 2 years of writing and blogging.
23. Television – my guilty pleasure. Over the years it’s been Sesame Street, The Cosby Show, A Different World, Fantasy Island (you know you used to watch it too) and more recently it’s Glee, LOST and anything on PBS.
24. NPR – TV for my ears.
25. Craig Ferguson – for being the first person each morning to make me laugh even on the days I felt like crying.
Continue reading 40 things I’m thankful for at 40 – Part 2
I’m 40 yall! And I‘m grateful for more things in my life than I can count. But in honor of my 40th birthday, I thought I’d list (in no particular order) just 40 things I’ve been thankful for over the past 40 years…
1. I was raised to believe in God, and I’m grateful that He has plans for my life that go far beyond anything I’m able to wrap my mind around.
2. My parents who are still married after 42 years
3. My sisters
4. My Sistahs
5. Family and friends
6. My love of reading, books and all things written
7. I’m a woman
8. I’m a woman in 2010 living in the United States
Continue reading 40 things I’m thankful for at 40 – Part 1
By this time tomorrow, I’ll officially be 40 years old. I don’t expect to wake up tomorrow morning and feel much different. I’ll knock my journal off the nightstand reaching for my glasses, my knees will pop as I get up to go feed Kingston (my dog), and I’m pretty sure I’ll look the same as I did the night before. I don’t expect problems to be miraculously solved or lifelong questions and struggles to be answered at the stroke of midnight. In fact, I’m kind of anticipating the opposite, and that’s a good thing. Let me tell you why. Continue reading The Final Countdown