When I launched this site I was 38. It had just dawned on me that at the rate I was going 40 wouldn’t, by any stretch of the imagination, be what I thought it would be. I started asking myself some tough questions and began examining the things in my life I was unhappy with. On Monday I asked you some of the same questions. These questions related specifically to living your dream life. What would that life look like and where would you be living it, were just two of the questions. Today I’m answering those questions myself, and the answers may surprise you…
What would you be doing? If you know anything about me you know that I love reading and writing just about anything I can get my hands on. I can spend days doing (almost) just those two things. If I could read and write for a living that’s exactly what I’d be doing right now. The truth is, reading and writing is what I spend most of my time doing, it’s just that I’m not always reading and writing the kinds of things I want to, and the making a living part has been hard to come by. In my dream world I’d be editing or writing an article/post/book while (and this is where the ‘Where would you be doing it?’ question comes into play) sitting in a cafe somewhere in Italy. Or I’d be writing about my experiences while visiting South Africa or France or *closes eyes and picks a place on a map*, on the plane ride home. But here’s the thing, at the core of all of these dreams is a vision of myself walking for hours through the streets of a town I’m visiting for the first time, running through airports catching last minute flights and curled up sleeping blissfully (or fitfully) during a 14-hour flight. It’s a vision of a version of myself that doesn’t exist today. I have got to become a healthier me to even begin to wrap my mind around doing many of the things I want to do, the way I want to do them.
In response to those of you who say, “you don’t have to be a certain weight, size, (fill in the blank) to do (fill in the blank)” I say you’re right – for the most part. Being a smaller, healthier version of myself won’t make all my dreams reality, but it will facilitate some of them coming true. Does it mean that I won’t pursue these things until/unless I hit some magic number on the scale or size in a pair of jeans? No. The truth is, there is no magic number or pair of jeans. There is just the dream of walking and exploring for hours without feeling like I’m melting like butter on a hot pan. It’s the dream of me sitting comfortably on a plane without feeling like I’ve got to baste myself to slide into the seat. I get winded just thinking about it.
If I’m being honest with myself, being comfortable in my own skin is my biggest dream, and also the first step in making any of my other big dreams a reality. I’m viewing 40 as an opportunity to embrace change and make the changes that need to be made to get to the place and person I want to be. With a lot of hard work and determination, maybe one day I’ll be writing my book, or my next post, somewhere outside a little cafe in Italy.
What would you be doing in your dream life, and where would you be doing it? What are your thoughts on waiting to be (fill in the blank) to go after a particular dream? Share your thoughts in the comment section or on the Facebook fan page.